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baby_sweetpea- November 29th, 2009
I am the saddest girl alive. Nick broke up with me today, and i really think we're over. I think it's time for us to be over, but im not ok with it. i hate being alone, and i love him with everything i have. It hurts a lot to know its not good enough, or i guess it hurts to know that i'm not good enough. I try so fucking hard, i sacrifice my happiness to make him happy. And it's just never enough. i think i need therapy.
- Second Star on the Right on straight on til Cali
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- baby_sweetpea
- April 4th, 2009
contemplative
Now I have the destination set...it's california. I want to go to the California College of Art for writing. But I need a portfolio, which i don't have. Here we go!
- Wanna be a lost boy? I could be your Wendy
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- baby_sweetpea
- April 2nd, 2009
I've been thinking a lot..and i think the best solution is to run away. I'm putting together a band of runaways.
- Asking my pet a question
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- baby_sweetpea
- March 27th, 2009
crazy
Amber(To Squeak)-Do you love your new house with marc?
Squeak-Meow-no I hate it and I miss you and i especially miss playing with kyra...lol
~I just gave my cat away to my friend and I really miss him and want him back.
- I've got the best taste in the worst guys...
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- baby_sweetpea
- March 25th, 2009
confused
More and more I feel like he's the one. The one that glues a smile to my cheeks and paints the world a brighter gray.
- So, I'm kind of a RedNeck
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- baby_sweetpea
- October 8th, 2007
- crazy
Moving to Tennessee in January. I'm downloading lots of country songs for my road trip.
- What Do You Have To Say? - Music: My First Favorite Band
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- baby_sweetpea
- September 11th, 2007
my first favorite band was metallica. My cousins and I were like 7 years old, and my uncle would blast the speakers so loud. I remember loving the feeling of the music physically in my chest. I used to scream "King Nothing" until my vocal chords gave out. And I still love Metallica.
- College Dropout
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- baby_sweetpea
- September 8th, 2007
crappy
I think I have to drop out of school. I cant afford my books, so monday i have to withdraw from my two classes. Yeah, two, cuz i couldnt afford to take a full load. It fuckin sucks. I feel like I've tried so hard and i want so bad to make something out of my life, and i can see it all getting farther and farther away. Bummsville.
- Right now I have no regrets
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- baby_sweetpea
- August 23rd, 2007
happy
This past year has been really hectic, and really frustrating. I've cried myself to sleep a lot. But I don't regret any decision I've made or any situation I was in, because it all lead up to today. And today I'm really happy. I haven't been just happy in a long time, and it feels good. I'm not sure where things are going, and for the moment i dont care. My right now is good, and my future seems so far away. Things are just fitting together and no matter how things end up I'm enjoying right now. Really that's all I can ask for, to enjoy right now without any expectations for later.
- I'm a flirt
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- baby_sweetpea
- June 28th, 2007
flirty
i like him...and it's starting all over again.
- i miss home
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- baby_sweetpea
- June 14th, 2007
erin and i made a kalamazoo run the other night. It wasn't at all what i expected, but i had really good time. I wouldnt have had the night go any other way. we watched movies with a couple old munchie customers. then we went and hung out with marc and nick (also munchie customers..im sensing a trend). We watched dazed and confused and went to ihop for breakfast. Where i ordered chocolate chip pancakes and got full off two bites. Then we went to the beach in grand haven and i got fried. It was a really good trip and i cant wait til we both have days off so we can do it again.
- sometimes i wish i could time travel...
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- baby_sweetpea
- May 11th, 2007
- always overthinking
ya know how sometimes you say something, or call someone and immediately after doing so you wish you hadn't? Then you kinda wanna say something to explain why you just said that stupid thing, or called? yeah...i been doing that a lot lately. I've been calling this kid then wishing i didnt then wanting to call to explain, but i just look like a huge ass because i never leave messages and the kids never answers. lol...it's really not funny it sucks.
- fuckin skeetown man
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- baby_sweetpea
- May 3rd, 2007
- crappy
So I've been home for all of three days now and i already hate it here. I'm still pretty much living out of my car, and I feel like i have so much shit to get done and none of it is getting done. All the while I'm losing touch with everyone who I care to see on a daily basis. I hate summer, by the time I get back to the zoo I'll have just settled into life here and completely be out of place there again. I don't know, a lot can change in four months. Hopefully things change the way I want them to, and hopefully I end up having a good summer. Even though it's starting out so shitty.
- I never consented to my life falling apart. I want my money back
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- baby_sweetpea
- April 26th, 2007
- rejected
fuck. my heart is breaking...literally i can feel it. Everything in my life is breaking off bits of my heart, and i want it to stop right now. I wish i could just say "I don't give a fuck" and really mean it. I wish I could say "I hate you" without thinking "I miss you." I wish I could control my emotions like I used to. Now, I get something in my head and I run with it, without regarding my actions. Generally I get really stubborn and end up looking psychotic when I want something. Maybe I am psychotic...I hope not.
- 364 days until im 21
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- baby_sweetpea
- March 23rd, 2007
- flirty
so...thanx to marc and nick i definetly started my birthday out with a bang...so to speak. they definetly whooped my ass in the wrestling department, and made me wish i hadn't pretty much broken my hand. gotta love those fuckers
- who wants to fail out of college??
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- baby_sweetpea
- March 20th, 2007
I do! lol-so passing my classes is apparently not a good idea this semester. I'm going to fail a good portion of my classes i think, which may affect me getting into the colleges of business and art in the fall. lets hope not :( lol whatev, i've fucked up this entire year and i really just don't care.
- she said
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- baby_sweetpea
- February 28th, 2007
- amused
"fuck you" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA fuckin hilarious
- it feels good to take the high road.....and now i'm over it
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- baby_sweetpea
- February 22nd, 2007
March 28th = the best day of my life. I don't think I've been this happy in days :)
- sometimes a little light shines through
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- baby_sweetpea
- February 16th, 2007
bouncy
life....couldn't be better.
- school's no fun
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- baby_sweetpea
- January 9th, 2007
I skipped school today...oops. That's not good. It's the 2nd day, and i'm already skipping out on it. Whatev, I'm pretty much over school right now. I need to figure out what I really like doing and what I'm good at.
I don't think I'm good at much, so that could be difficult.
